Monday, December 27, 2010


all of my life people have told me "not to take things so personally." it's not that i don't agree with this advice but i simply don't know how to apply it. i take everything into me: good/bad, beautiful/tragic, minor/catastrophic. i have never been able to merely observe life; instead it sinks into the marrow of my bones and the pulsing muscles of my heart.
perhaps i'm afraid that if i step back, i'll lose my view. or myself, as i know me.
in this season of resolutions and new plans, i should consider taking a different stance when it comes to facing life. i'm not oppose to the idea of change but i certainly don't run out to embrace it, especially when it requires self-examination and constant awareness.
in the meantime, i realize i overreact to happenings and will probably continue to do so for a long time even if i do commit to the work it will take to change. i'm an old dog on the brink of a new year.


  1. Laurie. Thank you for stopping by my site! Us birdie girls should stick together. As far as what you wrote about, I love the book "The Four Agreements" It released me from connecting with other people's thought and feelings about me. For me, and many people I know, it is a very freeing book.

    The first part is a shaman's journey to his spiritual truth (kinda out there if you've never read that kind of thing before) But, the actual 4 agreements are in line with Christianity and just about every spiritual practice I've learned about. It's a quick read and I found it soooo helpful. You DON'T have to let other people's ca-ca hurt you. Good news, huh?

  2. Laurie,

    Growing up my family always said the same thing to me--that I was too emotional, too reactive, that I took things to deep. I think in someway or form those that care about us say that because they care. They really do. But they, like most people--I included, have been conditioned to believe that emotion is a sign of weakness.

    As I've grown older and more aware of myself, I've come to realize that my emotion and my ability to feel so deeply is my strength in this world--and it's just a matter of me becoming more in tune with what my emotions are telling me--that is becoming the thing that others long to learn from me as well.

    Check out this video when you have a second....

    BIG Hugs!

  3. The luminaria lined path looks like Tubac or Tumacacori.

    Very familiar.